Mindfulness and The Change

Hi. I’m Jared. I’m 15. For most of my childhood, I’ve been excessively bullied. It’s something quite diffucult for me to tell, as it’s something I just, most of the time, don’t want to talk about it. But throughout my years, I finally found a way to manage not to concentrate on the past, but first I want to share about my past as best as I can.

During my elementary school years…. it was the worst. Bullying was the main reason why I often chose not to go to school. Those experiences often prevented me from wanting to live in society. I just wanted to be stuck in my room, isolating myself from the world, and others. I didn’t even tell this to anyone because I was overwhelmed and traumatized. I felt like there was no good people in the world. I felt like I was the most hated kid in the whole world. I had this thought for like 5 years, up until middle school.

When I enrolled in middle school, I thought that the best way to not get bullied was to just stay quiet, and not be involved. I kept to myself who I really was. But on the first day, I managed to socialize with a student. I made good friends with him until he left a year later. I then made a few friends along the way, and I was quite cheered up.

Shortly before I joined high school, I discovered mindfulness. It changed my life. I began practicing it on a daily basis. I felt like my life was saved all by meditation. Focusing on the present moment during my first attempt at meditation was quite a challenge for me, but through time it no longer became difficult for me, and I managed to not concentrate on the past or the future. I sometimes call my first meditation a milestone.

My first step towards it was in VR, where I learned much more about mindfulness. I eventually learned that there is 84,000 ways to meditate, which blows my mind! Meditating in a computer-simulated environment often calms me, and feeling the warmth of the VR headset on my head is something I just notice, and I go back to the breathing.

That’s it for this article. This is my first article, so I might have made some mistakes. Sorry if you come across any! Or like I enjoy saying “Just notice it, and go back to the breathing.”